Embracing Uncertainty

I used to push myself to do free weights 6 days a week.  I worked as many hours as I could until the back pain got too intense, and then I would ask for a reduction in my hours.  My motivation?  Fear of my uncertain future.  The thoughts of weaker muscles and of not having enough money to go out to eat when I wanted, or to purchase yarn and fabric terrified me.  I wanted to have as much money as possible in the bank and in Social Security before my physical condition deteriorated to the point that I could not work.  I prayed that I would not get worse so that I could work until I was ready to retire.

When I was told by a doctor to stop exercising, it took me months to accept it and stop.   I was so frightened by the prospect of losing what little strength I had, that it was not until I pulled a muscle in my back that I stopped.  Then I was still motivated by fear – the fear that I would do it again and have to take time without pay until I healed.

You would think I would have learned my lesson, but I did not.  When the doctor told me I needed a wheelchair, it took me 3 months and another episode of spastic back muscles to convince me that she was right.

So here I am 11 years later, on disability, having retired at age 53.  I have everything I need, with more than enough money for dining out and purchasing craft supplies.  Looking back I see that I finally learned the most important lesson in my life.  To accept that there is uncertainty in life, and have faith that all will be well.  I have finally learned that if I focus on the here and now, and not on what may or may not happen in the future, I can relax, knowing that nothing is lacking in the present moment.

Recently, after a conversation with one of my oldest and dearest friends, I realized that my prayer had changed.  I no longer ask that my physical condition improve or at the very least, not deteriorate. I ask that whatever happens, I accept it and trust that I will be able to handle it, and most important, that I accept what comes my way without resisting in fear.

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Peace in one minute

Sometimes it is our own negative thoughts that we need to remove in order to be at peace. When I am feeling sad, I find I have been dwelling on something that happened in the past. When I feel anxious, I am usually anticipating something in the future.  Both are a waste of mental energy.  The past is long gone, and the future I am worried about may not even happen!

I do my ABC mental check at least once a day.  Maybe this will work for you as well:

Ask yourself two questions:

“What am I feeling right  now?”

“What is wrong at this moment?”

Usually nothing is wrong – if I have no feeling of peace and ease, I am most likely reliving the past or thinking about the future.

Breath in and then exhale, pushing out all the air in your lungs, and with it any negative thoughts causing stress, anxiety, or sadness.  Hold your breath for at least 10 seconds, focusing on peace.  Release and feel the positive energy of peace fill your lungs.

Continue to the next moment and the rest of your day focusing on breathing out the negative energy and breathing in the positive energy.


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Free Crochet Pattern – Cat Toy

Crochet_Cat_Toys1 (1)Here is a fun toy for your favorite cat.  Instant Download from Jamey at Dabbles and Babbles:


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Free Bottle Cozy Pattern – Instant Download

I developed this quick and easy pattern using chunky yarn with instructions on how to make one and attach it to a stroller, walker, manual and motorized wheelchairs, and crutches.  The one for a motorized wheelchair can be carried over the shoulder by anyone.



Download your Free PDF file here: 006 Free Bottle Cozy Crochet Pattern from JadeRoseCrochet

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Expand Your Happiness

I began this 21 day meditation challenge yesterday, and I highly recommend it for anyone who wants to find peace and contentment.  Sitting for 20 minutes a day meditating is not for everyone.  Some people like to walk a maze, take a walk in nature, or just sit in silence after their morning prayer.  No matter what practice works for you, it can’t hurt to listen to what Deepak Chopra has to say.  Here is the link:



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Should You Carry the Yarn Along the Side or Cut It? | Lion Brand Notebook


Good information!

Originally posted on G-Ma Ellen's Hands - Adventures in Crochet and Knit:

I found this article pretty interesting, and I feel it might lend some useful information to those who question this subject as often as I do…I knew that you could ‘carry’ your yarn as you work up your project.  But, didn’t really know about the ‘twist’ thing.  Read on:

Should You Carry the Yarn Along the Side or Cut It? | Lion Brand Notebook.

When working a pattern in stripes, sometimes you’ll see an instruction “Carry the yarn not in use along the side” (as with the Knit Shell Beach Washcloth shown…); other times you won’t see an instruction at all.

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How to join your yarn by making a double knot – YouTube


Freebee Friday How To – this technique is also great when you need to tie a ribbon around a package.

Originally posted on G-Ma Ellen's Hands - Adventures in Crochet and Knit:

This video tutorial will show you how to join a new ball of yarn to your knitting or crochet by making an invisible knot. This knot is very strong and leaves no ends to weave in.

via How to join your yarn by making a double knot – YouTube.

I wish I had found this video before I started my last project!  Well, onward and upward!!!

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